aimless sotong

2006-09-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm...too much expectations is no good.....fell asleep grumpy the previous night only to have Ed wake me up early saying that he wanna bring me for Mac breakfast before service.....coollll....gotta eat my favourite sausage mcmuffin with egg meal......errrm ended up real late for first service though. But really appreciate his efforts.....and sweetness......

Started the first lesson of our marriage preparatory course......went in not knowing what's gonna happen....we both had a shock when we realised that we dun just have 2 but 4 counsellors!!!! And there's only the two of us!!! hahaha It was a rather enlightening session.......We both had to define our notions of what is a marriage......and we were made to address issues like what does it mean by women being helpers of men.....what are our core values...expectations.....what being united as one means and what it means by one flesh......though this isn't the first time we go thru' biblical passages on these issues......the once pure readings are now real in my life. Indeed when two very different people with opposing characteristics come together as one......it takes great pains and constant efforts to build the relationship. At this point of time ...the differences between us seems even greater as we discuss our plans and make plans.........

Had a great time lunching with some of my cell mates this afternoon.....Edwin's bd today....so a few of us...Daniel and family.....Ed...Ee Leen....Sue....Zin....Shelia...Chris and a new guy errr can't remember his name oops....helped Edwin celebrate his bd at Swensons before gorging ourselves with cakes at Secret Recipes.....Whoooo the banana chocolate cake......chilled strawberry cheese....admidst others....so yummy and so sinful........haha we were joking about naming our cell...bond by eating.....and Daniel came up with eat ur way to heaven......ya he's my cell leader haha imagine that LOL

Had a good chat with Ivy...Sue...Zin n Ee Leen while the guys sat at their guys' corner....talked about wedding decor and gift ideas......real thankful that they are so helpful and supportive......haha I'll be so lost and slow without their help and ideas and haha their ever excitable spirit..... =P

Finally collected my Convo gown and motar!!!! Waited super long for this ....finally 25th Sept!!!! Whoohoo!!!21 Gown's black...colours...purple and maroon....think it's kinda tacky..the colours but mum says that it's nice...whatever...as long as I can graduate and wear my precious motar......kiss my degree and take a family protrait...I'm fine with any colours!!! *wide grin* Guess I'll be getting my grad photos with my wedding pics....most pro Ed's auntie gonna bring it back for us....guess after a while I'm quite fine with getting the pics at a later date...after all haha it's the suspense of how I look like in the final product that makes me real excited.

Ed drove me pass Orchard so that I could take a look at the much praised pretty flowers...before we went for an impromptu dinner with my family......yet again ...I stuffed myself with food......they ordered quite a lot cos they wanted to try the food at this zhu chao in this new coffee shop at bedok North......boy am I bloated........HOW TO SLIM DOWN??? BOO HOO.....

2006-09-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring week.....work, tuitions and all.......mentally...physically and now emotionally drained. Work was rather okay....and really thank God that the hods were very gracious....allowed me more time to clear my class files and all.....phew!! Load off my mind ...doesn't mean that i can lax though...exams round the corner....compo exam on the 10 oct and had two more compos to do...that means 4 sets to mark!!!! Hmm.....markings juz keep piling but guess that's the life of a teacher......*grinz*....enjoyed my tuitions with my kids too....not a big chore...but guess cos having a bitch of menses cramps plus it being the start of a new term....am kinda exhausted now.....need a rest.....so that I can do more.......after term four...life would be sooooooooo good!!!

Was refreshed during cell......had a good chat with some of the gals...and learnt more about the gifts of the Holy Spirit......feel kinda refreshed after sharing and praying with my felllow cellmates. had a nice drink with Edwin and Ee Leen as well....time well-spent!

Was looking forward to a restful weekend....BUT wasted money on a stupid facial. Paid close to a hundred bucks for treatment...it was sleepy in a way but the "massage" gave me a massive headache! Didn't even help me squeeze out my blackheads loh!! Squeezed a few only ask me go buy cleansing milk so that nxt time can squeeze more.....koaz.....what kind of facial is this?? Didn't wanna trim my eyebows too initially...guess I gave a disgruntled look and she offered to do it later...but not a thorough job.......to conclude ...it was LOUSY. No way am I going back there.

To make things worse....didn't really have as good a time as I hoped to have after a week of hard work......somehow at times it seems that it's easier to have fun and ideas of where to go or what to do with more ppl ard.......it's not that i only think of negative stuff...I appreciate the positive stuff but at times I'm just so tired of things that just seem to keep repeating themselves......many times what is meant to be special somehow or other will end up being not so special......dun care to elaborate......am just so emotionally spent that I feel like just pausing and think real hard......

2006-09-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

Aren't in a best frame of mind.......feeling sick...and constipated.....think menses coming haha ....pretty long day today... had two meetings. Somehow guess I'm somehow adapting better to the afternoon session......dun find it as hot and bothering anymore. Finally completed fractions!!!! Kids will be doing fraction test this coming mon......must quickly start on the next topic...hopefully my kids will be better at reading time.....keeping fingers crossed. English and Science are also behind time...but think once I clear fractions...should be ok...provided that I dun have to do more paperwork??????

Kids were rather well-behaved today...real attentive ...am real proud of them when majority got their fraction problems correct. They got real excited when being asked to think of some suggestions on what kind of food they can sell on Community day cum Food and Fun fair. Guess will have a jolly good time discussing budget and strategies on how to go about meeting our $600 target tomorrow.

Spent some time making cards too...reason being that their former teacher is retiring tml.......some of the cards are really sweet and nice....well it's their sincere work after all.... =)
Pri 3 Kindness was real angelic today...so unlike the initial hellions they were. Realised that they flourish under loads of kind encouragements and gentle tones. They actually waited super quietly for me to arrive and very very polite and responsive. haha one think I really thank God...for once they did not dash to the sink all at once to wash their fruits and they actually did not mess up their tables and even completed their given task......and as usual 1 PE was a joy to go into......whoooo happy happy day. It would have been better if other teachers didn't complain yet again about the same naughty boys in my form class....... life's good!

2006-09-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

Tiring day.......had a long day today. In fact have been having exceptionally long days since I start afternoon session......still trying to fathom why some teachers like afternoon session so much haha .......anyway...I started my day yelling at kids....yes even before assembly. Have 5 to 6 constant "fans" who must meet me before school starts.....not by choice......they had already first made their choice by perpertually not handing in work. As expected...these same boys are my laziest...naughtiest and most talkative......at least some of them fulfilled all of the above. For once my chapel periods aren't about having fun and praising God...rather....I always end up "screaming" gently at ever talkative kids.......so it's kinda expected that they will be talkative in class too.....

Well before people starts to think I'm starting to whine AGAIN....... today's a pretty good day. Most of my kids who had forgotten their work...handed them in......and they were pretty well-behaved and rather attentive so much so that my naughty boys volunteered to stay during recess to clear their work while eating sandwiches! ........Why so??? haha cos they are hoping very hard that I would finally allow them to have PE again. Can't help but be amused by their antics. No no I am not torturing them by denying them fun.....hmmmm let's juz say that they had been preferring to talk more than going out to run???

Good weather. Thank God. Kids had fun playing Captain's Ball......despite their constant complaints about their fellow friends.....talk about not being tattletales. I have 38 of them. My Pri Ones were rather chatty...but in a good way. Always enjoy going into 1 patience and 1 peace.....real sweet and very "pinchable" children...... +0

Hmmm work wise..... markings piling up.....mainly cos I have gotta mark many back dated work....some as early as Feb. Expected to submit Sc and Maths files......so with all the unmarked previous works and current ones to clear.....kinda going bonkers. Kids always have the habit of remembering their overdue work after a few months???? When put together...no one can see my face behind the piles of Ws and Wbs.......but well... will juz try my best to clear them. Hopefully can rush syllabus in time.....need to constantly remind myself to not drag topics too long as if habitual of me. Can't help repeating whenever I see some lost faces......MUST MUST move on.........else I'll be so deadmeat by end Oct haha Need extra strength......and rest. 2nd day and am tired. Guess it happen to all teachers. But not complaining...I chose this myself.......and I am real thankful cos I have got a great class of lovable kids.....am falling in love with them more each day.... ya even the naughty ones. Each of them are special ...so am trying my damnest to remind myself that God loves them ......especially when all I wanna do is to scream at some of them at times haha

2006-09-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

First day of term four.....and it is chaotic already!!! Arghhhh.....table's filled with tons of books and worksheets.....survey forms.....and even more exercise books........it's not the end. It's the beginning. Am I tired. As expected...kids are super chatty...well not all...the good ones are as usal very very wonderfully attentive. It's sad but true...the naughty and loud ones always are the most prominent in class...the reason being...you just can't ignore them. Whilst the good quiet ones...fade into the background...silently... i wonder at times what go on in their minds....could they be wondering...did Miss Tan even notice that i'm in class today??? I definitely notice them...juz that with the boisterious around needing constant "attention"....it's becoming extremely hard to praise the obedient ones...and at the same time try to complete syllabus......

My day...... 10.30am dancing class......last lesson of modular cca.......thank goodness...keeping fingers cross......hopefully no more ccas for term four.
Spent whole afternoon "reminding" forgetful kids to be less chatty.....being a "tax collector" chasing after holiday assignments......basically it's punishment day......
To make things worse...one of my Pri 3 boy urinated in class last period!!!! How much worse can things be?????

Highlight of the day!!!! Ed brought me to Amoy street...D'sire bridal... hiak hiak...got a free set of wedding tea cups and saucers.....heart shaped and butterflies decor. Coollllll....happy happy happy. Contemplating about a tea dress that i kinda like...will look ard somemore haha

Had nice nice fried fish soup with Ben and Ed at China Square after that and then went Circuit Road for dessert....nice end to an otherwise patience testing day....... =))

2006-09-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

Ta da!! The long awaited entry....... haha

Been 2 months since I last update??? It has been a real eventful 2 months.
Started my contract teaching at my alma mater on the 24th July. Had mixed feelings.....excited about going back to school...long awaited dream...to go back to my very own primary school...to be colleagues with my very own teachers......yet at the same time was apprehensive. What would it be like??? Wouldn't it be real funny??? Haha guess all my worries were undue......my teachers knew that I was posted there......felt real welcomed and took great pride in going back....can't explain the joy within when they put their arms round me and introduced me to others that I was their student.......nice nice feeling to be back. First one month plus or so was rather tiring .....yet relaxing. Tiring cos had to go to different classes everyday....face different children....tackle different temprements...ambiguious timetabling.....but relaxing in a way as I was not assigned any fix class....no responsiblities ...early home going......and most importantly nice colleagues!!!! Have a great "neighbour"...another contract teacher, Luo Qian...from China..teaches Chinese. Have great fun with her ard...always haha.....

And of course!!! Had a great Teachers' Day. Lots of pressies!!!! Spent the day making payment for my flat at HDB....then lunching with Ed at Jack's Place before heading to a Chinese teacher's house for KTV session...ahem oldies mostly.....dinner was at Changi Village Hotel...ended the day drinking at the Civil Service Club at Changi........ of course I drank mango juice duh! The others drank haha

Now that I finally got a form class.....am beginning to feel the stress...being form teacher and having to be assessed for performance sure is some great responsibility!! My Primary Three class is quite sweet though. Talkative.....ever forgetful......gets on my nerves at regular intervals but very endearing. Took me some time to get to know them well and to thumb them down.....though they can be a real handful at times....they are all rather sweet and ever...VERY helpful kids who clamour to help me carry books....so enthusiastic are they ...that they claimed that I am skinny and needed help *grinz* Boy dun I juz adore them!

Hmmm...as for wedding preparations.....

Took wedding pics
Decided on the wedding date
Bought my wedding gown from Allure Charix
Booked my make-up artist
Made booking for the church sanctuary...
Decided on caterer
Approached some people whom we need help from......pastor....singer..camera man etc...
Have more or less booked my "Jie Meis" and bridesmaid
Ed more or less got his "Xiong dis" and "Ban lang"
Got two perfect flower gals
Found and bought a perfect house.......getting keys end Oct
Made a tentative guest list
Chosen color scheme...lavender and white (Hmm maroon looks nice too???)
Attending marriage preparatory class in Oct

Didn't know that preparing for marriage takes so much effort and it can be real mind boggling and super draining. Came to realise that as the date draws nearer ....expectations change....there seem to be more tensions...more arguments.....apprehensions. Yet at the same time, a lingering feeling of joy....excitement.... a new intimacy?? Guess as we become more open with our thoughts and feelings.....we are more able to talk things out and understand each other more as we walk on towards a life together. The past few months haven't been easy...lots of anger...hurts....expectations...... We had to really sit down each time to cool down and talk things out...soothe anger....comfort and relieve existing hurts......addressing problems......to simply thrash things out.....it hasn't been an easy road....but it is nevertheless a satisfying and enriching one. In a way...we are learning to grow to be more like each other...to be more accepting....more forgiving...more generous....more loving. On my part....am trying to be more independant, more "wifely", more forgiving....be wiser and more sensitive yet not too sensitive.....the list goes on..... It is indeed hard to learn to live as one ...and not remain two seperate beings. The road ahead...is predicted to be even tougher...haha with the house coming...as the date draws even nearer...we are bound to have more conflict and hurt but am praying hard that somehow we'll be able to work things out amicably and grow even closer in the event. After all....I first chose him because I love him so.

2006-07-07T10:20:00.000+08:00

Dreams do come true.....

Had come a long way.
Went through many trials,
encountered great heartaches.
Too many nights of tearing,
so much disappointments,
all my confusions,
now put to rest.
Ever so slowly,
the imposing bleakness,
fades into eternal nullity.
Slowly yet surely,
the soft light shines,
bringing with it,
renewed hope,
indescribable joy within.
Many years,
oh been so long,
have waited so long,
for endless windings,
to come to an end.
The time has come.
Has finally come.
Had not travel in vain.
My dreams fulfilled.
The much coveted paper,
the job I so desired,
dreams I had held unto,
for so very long.
Slowly slowly,
no more illusive.
Yet the deepest yearning,
beckons still.
Holding on tight,
I clasp your hand,
walk on I shall,
with you by me.
Leaning on your love,
we'll walk on still.
The deepest desire,
about to be fulfilled.
The donning of the gown,
the saying of I do,
the pledging of our love,
admidst pure bliss.
The end has come.
At least for me.
Yet for us,
it is just the beginning.

2006-07-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

Busy Monday.......

Awwwww man ...went on a shopping spree....luckily Ting went with me...else I'll be oh so clueless as to what to get.....we started at 1pm and only finished shopping at 6 plus.....starting our shopping at City Link before heading for Bugis. Geee......had a hard time finding the perfect pair of heels and couple tees for photo taking.....haha the heels are either too high...too uncomfortable or I just don't like them. Hunting for tees proved to be a great challenge too...no cartoons....no overly youngish tees.....no beach boys wannabe ones ........it was only after hours of hopeless searching when we finally found the perfect tees!! haha two fila men tees....one in blue and one in hot pink with the words...."Fall In Love" on them....absolutely cool!!! Hmmm maybe a Mickey tee might be cuter and of a better fit but well.... *grinz* I found them!!! Found a pretty nice pair of silver heels as well at OG Bugis...after hitting many shoes outlets.....hmmm had another in mind actually....was covered in pretty sequins and all but the silver version's out of stock....well...in a way it's a blessing I guess...managed to get another pair at OG......in shimmering silver....no sequins but costs 30 bucks lesser than the other one that caught my eye. Hmmm.....am contemplating if I should get a pair of white heels as well....???? Maybe I will if it is necessary.....now I just wanna concentrate on what else to get before the shoot... LOlz *Shucks* I sound bimbotic already!!

Ed and I finally had dinner with my Dad and Mum.....a rather good dinner I would say.....we talked over wedding plans ...house that sort of stuff.......am glad that we are finally able to sit down and talk.......well it's only the beginning........guess there's more to come....plans awaiting to be made...that sort of thing......nevertheless......things are looking up!!! +)

2006-07-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

Mixed Feelings.....

Hmm....taking wedding pics next week? Kinda look forward to it? But at the same time am apprehensive??? So many stuff to do or so one thought.....all not done....so many stuff to think about ...so much planning......it's like being caught in a wild whirlwind that blows hard.....carrying people in wild circles......Have always imagine weddings to be all romance and sweetness......but was wrong? It's barely the beginning and already there are some hiccups...disagreements.....stress.......disappointments......the list goes on. All these problems are more than sufficient to offset whatever budding excitement and enthusiasim that is within oneself. Ya...perhaps one is excited and in a way looking forward to marrying their love or at least have always look forward to that special day.....but somehow.....something seems to be amiss...some spark? Some inner joy? Perhaps.. there's a lacking in communication??? Perhaps what one really lack is quality time spend and deeper communication??? Perhaps one is just having pre wedding jitters and being overly paranoid......whatever it is ...it's time one learn one new thing.......Weddings aren't all sugar and honey after all. Maybe it'll be more fun if two can truly share this joy be it verbally through discussions....share thoughts...make decisions together and through actions........some things are only fun and meaningful when two do it together..........it's not a matter of u understanding ur partner so you have to go get some stuff as a proof that you know your partner well.....the reason being that some things are meant to be chosen together? Just the two of you??

2006-06-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

Marriage.......questions and more questions..........

Isn't marriage supposed to be between two people who love and respect one another?
Shouldn't loving mean being open to one another's feelings.....understanding what the other party really want and think about? Shouldn't loving means thinking and valuing what means lots to the one you love? Before the actual planning starts.....shouldn't both parties have heart to heart talks and take time to fully share how each other feel....what each other want and most importantly shouldn't the one whom you intend to marry be the first one to know what plans you might have and shouldn't the other party be asked of their opinions? Marriage is all about compromise and mutual agreement and acceptance isn't it??? Then why.......tell me ...why do some people just keep their thoughts to themselves? It is okay to have inner thoughts ...surprises....whatever people call it.....but when the partner choose to share it....shouldn't your loved one be the first one to know.....especially when he or she is going to be the one involved ...he or she is the one whose affected......When it comes to planning ...for such a life changing event......sharing should be spontaneous....listening is an essential......reaching a midpoint is vital. One cannot just think...make decision...and then share it with others before telling your partner....or sharing it with your partner only because she happens to be around while you share with some others. No it doesn't work that way. Marriage is more than that. Nobody want and nor have have to be the one yakking away....trying to get response......partners shouldn't be the one asking their loved ones to tell them first...insisting that they talk to them...to share with them, their thoughts....to discuss what to do for photo shoot and stuff........with only a week away from the photo shoot...it is only natural...expected that a happily couple whose about to be married...would be sharing spontaneously and planning what stuff to bring or wear for the shoot. Nobody wants and people detest only being able to share intimate things like that ...when others are around....only when others ask.........if things come to that...then the true meaning and joy of marriage and the planning process is reduce to nothing. Then there's really no point.

2006-06-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

Overdued Updates.....

Been two months....time sure fly past fast. Had been a really tough two months. Nearly broke down both mentally...physically and emotionally. Partly cos I can't really handle what i was facing.....partly cos the whole situation was demoralising...in a way oppressing......felt so lost that it got so bad that I broke down several times and almost lost my sanity. Thank God for Ed and my loved ones who stood by me. Wanted to quit everything and just lose myself in despair and hopelessnes a couple of times....the noise..the pressure ....the wait...everything ate into me...suffocated me....but am glad that I stuck on.....the afermath was in a way rather worth all the pain .......gonna miss what I was doing....especially the kids who had grown on me .....but guess it's time to let go and go.....time to move on and for once I am really glad to move on cos it's been a long wait and for once I know for sure where I will be heading next.

Finally gotten a reply after an agonising three month wait.....am thankful that I can truly move on......now just praying that will be able to get what I want...even if I dun..will still be thankful cos God has not forgotten about me......and my long suffering request haha. Just need to clear up ...tie some loose end and then move on to my next phrase. Finally...after 5 long agonising years ...I can finally ...truly say that I am a teacher.....with pride. Thank you God for answering my prayers.

2006-06-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Today I stand,
at a crossroad,yet again.
It's been a long time,
been way too long.
Am tired and drained,
sense of loss overwhelms.
Two roads ahead.....
two unknown futures.
Which way to go?
I know not of.
Now I stand,
two paths afore,
which way to go,I
know not of.
Standing still,I
move not a step.
Standing still,
I await a sign.

The wait has been long.
The harsh rain hard.
Yet after the gloom,
a light shines bright.
The answer has come.
The wait ends now.
Standing up tall,
the world falls beneath.
Bursting with hope,t
he future no longer bleak.
Standing still,
the soft wind blows.
Ever so beckoning,
ever so sweet.

2006-04-14T14:31:00.000+08:00

Stressful Week

Have been real busy these few weeks. Have got three tuition kids now. So have been spending my weekdays having tuition almost every weekday and sometimes Saturday. Kinda tiring at times but guess one gotta do what one gotta do. The extra income helps anyway. School has been real tiring, demoralising at times. My Sec One NT is not interested in English Language and they always complain when have to do work. Moreover, a couple of them can be real rebellious and they always either get into trouble...in or out of class. Forever talking, shouting, playing.......well of cos they do have their moments of silence and sweetness. Wish that it happen more often though. Kinda worried that they won't be able to produce anything for project by end April. My Sec One NA is much better behaved. Naughty yes...but a sweet lot. Even the notorious boys will tone down when talked to nicely. At least most if not all do their work.....wish they hand them in on time though ...*sighz*.........As for my Sec One Express classes.....different culture and lingo altogether. They are chatty...naughty....get into trouble as well but in a cheeky and harmless way....not at all rebellious. My Sec 3s......rebellious and noisy lot....in a way my nightmare. Yet at times I am heartened to find a few wanting to learn for the day.......sometimes I wonder if they have some conspiracy....haha they are quite tactical. They takes turns being naughty and rebellious...take turns to talk in class...take turns to sleep. Well....nevertheless I thank God that they have toned down somewhat. As compared to the beginning...they are like angels at times now. But only at times.

This week though a real short one for me, had been real tiring. Went for recycling with my Sec 1 NA on Tuesday. Collected newspapers and stuff in a bid to raise funds for the school. Had fun...nice to see the kids work together. Have juz been asked to be temporary TC for the class. That means a big cut in free periods...more duties and going to school earlier than I usually do. MORE STRESS!!! Hmm...... already got tons of marking.....got a couple of stuff to set...notes to create.....worksheets to be created as well......now more work....but well can't complain much...I chose this job in a way. =) But....considering the peanuts i'm paid.....hmmmm....

Went for interview with MOE yesterday. Was too nervous. Felt that I didn't do well at all. Results will be out in two weeks...not sure if will get in this time round. But shan't think about it anymore......gonna leave it in God's hands. If it's meant to be...it will...if it's not then it's time to do something else. Just hope that if that time does come...I will take strength and be wiling to take the step of faith into the unknown.....but on second thoughts my past five years have been rather "unknown".......hmmm What's ahead? K gotta stop.....markings await....and gotta set my two exam papers else will be deadmeat........

Awaiting my Lord

2006-03-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

Awaiting my Lord.......

It's been quite a while since I last blog. Have been real busy and kinda stressed up with stuff. Hmm....can't believe that i have been at YCKSS for coming to 3 months now...time sure pass quickly when not paid attention to. The kids in general were behaving themselves better as compared to the beginning......but it can be real draining at times....most of the time....cos they can be real tempremental and rebellious when the mood strikes them. Then it's back to WWIII ......I standing alone against a whole bunch of them. Ya I know it sounds pathetic but well...they aren't always that bad.....I guess.

Awaiting MOE's reply.....really hope that will get to go for interview soon....tried finding a job but either they dun attract me or I'm not appealing enough to be consider. Either way......I know that deep down within....I really wanna do that one thing.......well no point brooding over it. If I still ain't got no reply by 1st week April....really gotta job hunt seriously .....else will be stuck for a longggggggggggggggg while and honestly speaking ...i'm getting real tired of my status quo.......no more burning passion or whatsoever...guess 5 yrs a long time to hang onto something.............

K gotta go hit my pillows....long and demanding week ahead.......wish ....wish ...wish...that things will change for the better soon.........tired...simply tired of how things are.......drained...damn drained......arghhhh I wanna sleep already!!!!

2006-02-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

Wow..another year passes just like that. January 2006 though a mere beginning...was filled with much ups and downs. Lots of arguments.....uncle passed away.....bro's off to Sweden on a student exchange programme.....Dad and Mum's anniversary......Chinese New Year.......lots of yummy food....family reunion dinner.....xiong di''s taiwanese porridge reunion.....Breeks.....shopping spree for new year clothes.......ang pows.....and can you believe it!! I am turning 24 soon! Almost a quarter of a decade old!!! Tsk Tsk better find a job fast grrrr.......my new year wish!!

Watched "Fearless" and "Memoirs of a Geisha" over the festive season. "Fearless" is a rather nice film. Lots of fighting scenes....rather violent and bloody and the death of its main character "Huo Yuan Jia" bears a certain significance . The death of "Huo Yuan Jia" serves as a figurative end to the kung fu career of actor Jet Li. After many brillantly filmed movies, in particular the epic of "Master Wong Fei Hong", Jet Li has finally bow out of the acting scene in kung fu honor and splendor, the same way his counterpart "Huo Yuan Jia" died a literal death in a bid to uphold the honor of chinese martial arts. My dad's gonna be one of his many fans whose gonna miss him lots.....haha considering the fact that out of a ratio of 10 movies my dad watched, 7 out of 10 starred Jet Li.

"Memoirs of a Geisha" too was beautifully filmed be it the setting, the characters or storyline. Though a little slow moving, the three main actresses "Ziyi Zhang. Gong Li and Michelle Yeoh" were somehow able to act out the essence of their characters. Ziyi Zhang depicts Sayuri's perserverance and seemingly hopeless obssesion for the Chairman rather brilliantly just as her younger counterpart evokes mixed feelings of envy and fear for Hatsumomo rather convincingly. Gong Li too dazzled the audience being the bitch she is, acting as Hatsumomo. However Michelle Yeoh's role as Mameha is somewhat a little too cold and somehow a little lacking in subtance.

Well being a natural literature geek....I read the novel way before I watched the film and can't help wanting to commenting on novels and films. All I can say is that the novel captivates me and evokes deep emotions within as I relish it. Indignance towards young Chiyo's childish ambition ....deep sympathy for her pain, suffering and seemingly hopeless love.....admiration for her undaunting perserverance and steadfast love for the Chairman...joy at her final contentment.....hatred for the cruel Hatsumomo.....then sympathy for her helplessness in the cruel world of entertainment.......gladness for Mahema's extension towards Chiyo....her constant advices and help for the young Sayuri......the novel itself is a brilliant piece of literary work. However having read such a great piece of writing....one always head for the cinema with high expectations and despite being a rather beautiful piece of work, the film somehow falls short of one's expectations.......but then again...a less crtic would find the movie worth spending $9.50 on. =)

2006-01-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

"Love seeketh not itself to please,
Nor for itself hath any care;
But for another gives its ease,
And builds a Heaven in Hell's despair."

The Clod and the Pebble - William Blake 1794

Indeed love itself is a mystery. Dad and mum celebrated their 25th anniversay yesterday. No pomp nor splendor. Just a simple family gathering....me...ed...jinli....Pk's ain't even around.....no presents...no flowers....no hugs...no kisses....not even a murmur of I love ya. Yet as i sat opposite them enjoying the yummy food before us, I can see the silent love between them. Dad may hardly buy mum any presents....never bought her flowers.....don't even bring her out to classy places.....yet his silent love for her is obvious. In every possible way. Indeed....as I sat there gazing at them celebrating their love in the simplest possible way.........I can't help but feel a tinge of warmth and pray hard that I too will be like them someday........last night, I learnt the simple truth to love. Silence need not be a bad thing.....sometimes love should be felt and listened with the heart and not words. Love don't come easy...my parents faced lots of hardships together...lots of heartaches.....yet their love bought them lots of joy and by sticking through thick and thin.....they had indeed come a long way.......someday....juz someday...I wish to be just like them....indeed true love builds a heaven in hell's despite.

2006-01-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

Quiet Sunday

The sermon today got me thinking. "From meaninglessness to meaningful". I've indeed been caught in a stagnant limbo for a long while now. Feel kinda demoralised.....defeated when facing certain issues in life. Yet in my darkest hour, the Lord reminded me of his enduring grace. Indeed He's my stronghold...my refuge...my provider. Indeed the Lord works in ways unknown to us. I suddenly remember that God only allow us to be troubled and boggled with problems because He trusts us enough to believe that we are capable of solving them. Each tear we shed, each problem we face......help us grow stronger. With Him by me...I have nothing to fear. I may be apprehensive of what is to come......yet I am assured that somehow....God will make a way.....for me. Somehow I guess I felt a little better after a much treasured long long walk at the Botanical Garden.........

Long walk in the Gardens.....

Walking silently,
side by side.
A sense of sadness overwhelms.
Beautiful scenes before,
sense of gloom looms between.
Walking silently,
down somemore,
a sense of peace replaced.
Holding hands walking along,
dreaded silence now a bliss.
Love takes hold,
brushing all fears away.
It always is,
always has been there.
Walking silently,
side by side,
your silent love overwhelms.
For tired though you are,
you walked on just for me.
Slowly surely I felt ur love,
the once dreaded walk,
now somehow sweet.
Rustling leaves,
gentle wind.
Dancing swans,
painted wings.
Walking silently,
side by side.
The road ahead,
stretches on.
Apprehensions along,
may come again.
Silent anger,
may be felt once more.
Yet trudge on I will,
however daunting.
For alone I am not.
Your silent care comforts.

2006-01-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

BEING TOO DEMANDING????

Is it too much to ask?
For some quality time,
not all the time mind you.
Just some quality time.

I don't want to spend,
what little time I've got,
hearing how good so and so is.
It only makes me sick.

I had heard enough,
of their qualities,
seen enough,
to know them well.

Already I had too little time,
to start with.
I don't yearn to meet,
only to have your attention elsewhere.

Nor do I want to spend,
my precious time,
disappointed and getting hurt,
ending each time with regrets.

I never asked for the world.
Never ask for undivided attention.
Just some quality time,
just you and me.

All i ask,
is that you be fair,
dun simply gloom when with me,
but face aglows when others come.

It hurts when you are vague,
only when with me.
Yet so spontaneous,
in the presence of others.

I simply loathe,
to be always asking,
am tired of being happy to meet,
only to end the day wishing otherwise.

All I ask is some quality time.
I ain't no need for the world.
Just some quality time,
just you and me.

Each day I yearn,
that one day you ask,
and really mean it,
from your heart.

I have no need,
for all your time.
Just some happy times,
like before.

All I really want,
are some happy smiles,
face aglow,
even when alone.

Is it really too much?
To ask for some fairness,
some willingness on your part,
some smiles not silence when alone?

2006-01-14T03:00:00.000+08:00

Mundanity of Life

Time creeps by without us noticing. Yet another week. Poof! Gone in a puff! Life has been very much a routine nowadays. Been sleeping late.......spent the earlier half of my days doing housework.......wishing damn hard that I would get to go out the later part of the day.........day after day......the same old thing. There are times that I wish that things will get better soon...that I'll be able to find a job soon......yet sometimes...I feel myself caught in a state of limbo.....way too contented with life to want to change. Sometimes I yearn.....yet other times...I lingered. Awwww....I am a contradiction personified eh.......????? Hmm I wonder.

Despite the mundanity.......it has been a pretty good week. At least I managed to pack my messy room......and the living room. Now that mum needs to help dad with work.....my bro going Sweden soon......sis doing relief teaching.......I can be of errr sort of a help at home. Not that I enjoy it.....but well.....*shrugs* A gal gotta do what a gal gotta do.

Haha it's Xiong Di week again.....been hanging out with the xiong dis again after Ed's self declared week of abstinence from his xiong dis. Hmm somehow at times, I enjoy his company more when with the gang ......been wondering if he plotted it so haha......*laffs*

Ed finally drove me alone!!! It's a rather nice feeling to sit by him and watch him concerntrate on the road as he drove......though ahem.....it's still a teeny weeny mind boggling to watch him park the car at times. But then again!! Guess his skills are not too bad.....considering that I dun get dizzy when he drives.....oops!!! *private joke* I'm juz joking abt the dizzy part!! *wide grinz* But the day I enjoyed most was when Ed took the effort to meet me for a quick dinner even when he was exhausted after work. Really appreciated time spent with him and his helping me carry stuff hm that night. Though he denied it.....I knew that he was afraid that i would have difficulty carrying the stuff......... Feel very very xin fu ah..... =P

All in all it has been a pretty good week. OOps am I repeating myself???? I must be slipping into my sleep mode...else I won't be regurgitating!!!!!!

2006-01-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

Finally!!@! The long awaited updates!!!

Ahem! Before i start...Estee says that I need to explain why I'ven't been updating for the past three months. Errr...guess I have been lazy?? haha any three months isn't a long while...yet these three months had been kinda happening. So before you even start reading these ........take heed! Read only when you are duper super free....else give it a skip ya. *grinz*

Been kinda stressed up recently....confused maybe?? Everyone's been bugging me to get a job.....not that I don't want to.....but it's really kinda hard to find one that I like....or rather will try liking. True there are lots of other eggs in the basket....no time to lose....can't always hold on to just one egg. Yet this is something that has always been part of me....a passion since I was nine. Has always been my dream to be able to wear the motar.....the graduation gown.....then be able to finally become what i really want to be.......but guess reality sometimes don't adhere to man-made plans. Thought that my dreams will be fulfilled now that I've finally graduated. Felt real disappointed and a trifle upset cos' my final hopes are dashed. The thought of even having to do something that I might not like, scares me .......my near two mths working as a temp in Morgan Stanley isn't what I would call a dream job.....though others might beg to differ. So needless to say....I procrasinated a little when it comes to job hunting but I know that I ain't got no choice. After all it's time to get practical........gotta get a job fast...grrrr.......

Backtracking........

Time sure flies. Haha know I always say that. But life's real unpredicatable. Christmas came and went. To my surprise! The guys actually co-operated and were enthusiastic about our "PINK CHRISTMAS", despite their much protests over the past months. Hahah it's priceless enough to have them donning pink apparels and accessories. I nearly flipped when they started spraying temporary pink dye onto their hair!!! It sure was fun from the start! The scrumptious pink meal, the exchanging of gifts,the playing with Estee's cousin's dog, the guys throwing of "ahem"...across the field, the getting of a stern scolding from an irate neighbour.........right to the watching of Narnia The Lion, The witch and The Wardrobe, with the guys still sporting bright pink hair..........ahhhhhh *dreamy look**

Went Miss Clarity cafe with Ed on his birthday before meeting the guys for coffee. Didn't occur to me that he didn't get to have a birthday cake last year till he mentioned it only sometime last week. Hmm.....must remember to get him one this year hee......

Bintan trip was kinda fun too......beautiful place.....great but super expensive food.....awesome waves that simply bowl one over...I do mean it literally.......will upload the photos soon...that is if I manage to figure out how to do so.....else pls refer to Estee's blog haha

1st Jan 2006 was the first time I got stuck in a jam for coming to 2 hours!! In Singapore!! We thought to try sneak a peep at the fireworks over nicoll highway when the clock strikes 12....but alas! Guess everyone thought the same and we all ended up stuck in the jam and really peeping at the fireworks....catching only snippets of it as we crawled on in line. Han, Ed and I ended up the last to reach Lor 1..........poor Han...bet his leg ached after having to drive in a jam for so long. We were all ravenous and ended our countdown with roti pratas......ice milo....ice tea.....etc. We stayed up so late that I was zombie liked during service the next day........ that nite, Han, Ed and I went Kel's hse for steamboat ........food ....food and more food.....

On a more solemn note........

Ah bei passed away last Wed. Sudden death....drop dead at work before my parents' eyes......kinda scary........so unexpected. It is only at times like this that we see the truth about people. Different reactions.....some upset...some emotionless.......the ones that really matter ended up to be the ones to care the less......what does the future holds? No one knows.......maybe there will be more trouble......hopefully not. Well I'm in no position to bother.....so will just observe as an onlooker and continue my hopeless hunt for a job and pray real hard that whatever that comes my way.......will be sufficient to provide........be something that I will grow to like ............

What lies ahead?
I know not.
Daunting road,
weary feet.

Faltering steps,
must go on.
Step by step,
bit by bit.

What lies ahead?
I know not.
Darkness shrouds,
heavy heart.

Faltering steps,
must go on.
Step by step,
bit by bit.

What lies ahead?
I know not.
Walk I must,
onwards still.

For he who knows,
guides me still.
Step by step,
bit by bit.

2006-01-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Missing ya so

A day barely passes,
without me missing ya.
Don't ask me why.
I simply miss ya so.

Can't help the silly grins,
the quickening of heart,
the stange stirrings within,
each time i think of ya.

Your every smile,
every frown,
each little gesture,
etches deep within.

Your melodious laughter,
tingles.
Your assuring touch,
lingers.

So don't ask me why!
I simply miss you so.
Each day I yearn,
I yearn and I yearn.

Written especially for the love of my life............so yes like the rest of the stuff written.....unless clearly indicated to be a quotation.......this amongst all others are my own copyright...... haha cos I said so. *winkz*

2006-01-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

Skylark singing,
joyous laughter,
dancing children,
beaming faces.

I stand still.
Looking yonder,
gaze transfixed.
Staring afar.

Heart yearning so,
to be a part.
Apart I am,
afar yet still.

Feet fight to prance,
tears streaming down.
Soft heart breaking,
harsh wind blows still.

Standing forlorn,
I look on still,
gazing afar.
Heart yearning so.

2005-10-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BUMMER!!!

Gee I can't believe it! I haven't been blogging for the past hmmm 22 days??? Time sure creeps by when we least keep count. Exams came and gone. Past hadn't been a bed of roses. True I did go out with the guys despite having exams round the corner...but the week when I had my exams was sheer torture and extreme boredom....with Ed in Germany..Ben and Han in Thailand....Kel and Estee still in Aust.....the rest of the gang busy......and I was trying my damnest not to meet up with my galfrens......

Hmm all's well end well.....hee real carefree and happy now that everyone's back well almost everyone......exams over and I get to have all the free time in the world. Have been busy meeting up with my pals right after exams..still got a few whom i've not met. Been eating non stop and getting fat.....*lol* Han and Ben too had been real sweet eps when Ed's still away in Germany...haha they were afraid that I would be bored to tears so they asked me out a couple of times...... =) Things are better now that Ed's back!!! *happy*

But sighzzzz...getting a little teeny weeny bored ...maybe i've been rotting way too longgggggg eh? "grinz* Can't wait to get a job soon and for Estee to come back so that we can plan for Christmas and ahem plot on how to go about making the guys wear pink. Haha

Errr kel I know u are dying to hear gossips....there are some lurking here and there but many which I must keep mum first.....else I will kena bash left right centre.....okie u get the picture. In short if you wanna know what has been going on here.....study real hard now....finish ur assignments fast and come back soon!!!! The same goes to Estee ah!!

2005-09-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

WOE IS ME........

Down with food poisoning since Sun early morning.....so bad that my gastric still suffers from intermitten sharp pains especially so when I try to eat.....so bad that I had to take a jab for it...and I hate injections!!!!

It was supposed to be a great week.....apart from the two demoralising lectures.....everything else was a breeze. Had fun doing relief at CSH last Wed...not only did I enjoyed my time with the kids...I had a delightful time bitching with Jo as we made our way to Parkway after school. The next few days were sweet bliss as I met up with Ed and Han for dinner on Thurs then with Ed alone on Fri and then meet Ed with his pal Colin.

Just after I had an ultra delightful evening dining with Colin, Lydia and Ed at Carl's Jr....IAs i sank my teeth into the giantic (by my standards) and superlicious chicken burger...my mind was thinking.....I must be in 7th heaven......it's nice ...more than nice...so much so that I actually managed to finished the entire burger all by myself!!

But I had to be a glutton during supper when Han came to fetch us.Sighz I had to eat a bowl of cold dou hua all by myself when I should be drinking soya bean drink like Ed did. Dunno why Han wasn't affected but well guess he has got a tougher tummy than I do.
Was still okay when we went to MS arcade to play...but the pains started during wee hours.....and were most unbearable. Almost wish that I was dead instead.....and sighz...having the womanly time of the month makes the pain doubly worse. Still hurts especially so when I try to eat...hope will get well soon else can't concerntrate on my revision and I am behind time...arghhhh never gonna eat the cold dou hua at selegie again!!

2005-09-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

On a 16 days countdown!~!!

Had my last two lectures before exams....realised that there's just SO much to revise! Way too many books to read! Not to forget...piles and piles of notes! Arghh why did I even chose to do a Shakespeare module in conjunction with an English Literacy module the first place...now there's hell to pay...........

Burdened with a load too big,
my stone-liked heart weighs much.
Draggy steps made slower still,
as troubles swirled my mind confused.
Yearning! Longing! For escape!
The end seems dead before my eyes.
The frantic search futile,
the road ahead daunting.
Yet disheartened I cannot!
For onward still, I must go.

2005-09-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY AM I!!

Haven't been blogging cos have been real busy. Just came back from a nice dinner with Alice and James at Marina Square Cartel. Now let me make it clear, it's nice cos I spent my time with two dear people but the food sucks. My deep fried fish was all fishy and worse!! SOGGY!!! So bad that we asked the person for a change....the new piece of fish...well crispier but still errr fishy. Anyway, really enjoyed my time with Alice and James. Both of them have been real nice eps Alice....whose a really sweet and generous gal. She's nice not just because she always treats me k but rather because she has always been there for me esp when the going gets tough. Really appreciate that in a friend. *smiles*

Finally completed my dreaded assignments and project! Phew! Feel so relief now cos having completed my work...there's just one last hurdle left to my study journey....Exams! Ahhhh that much hated word never sound so sweet...maybe it's cos this will be final exam of my uni life..that is unless i decided to further my studies in the future. Haha but whatever it is, my uni life's finally coming to an end....WHEE!

Hmm despite having to work on my assignments and project, life's been exciting. Last week had been rather eventful. So be prepared, this is going be a super duper longggggggggggg account...so if you don't think you can stand my almost endless droning....STOP reading now!!

Finally met up with some dear friends......saw Liyan when I went to NTU on err think Wed? Had gone there to help Ed get something from his pal Colin. Liyan was real nice...she actually saved me a place in the Lee Wee Nam library so that I can study with her. So sweet of her hor... haha

Thursday was even more happening. Had arranged to meet Xiao P for dinner when a sms appeared on my phone. It goes something like this: "Mavis how! I have brought JJ out for a long walk and now we are stuck in Enous because no cab want to take us and i am very tired." Haha only Fang will do this. She actually brought her dog all the way from Sims drive to Kembangan before going to Enous.....now that's far! So what happened after that? Well Fang brought JJ over to rest his feet but we ended but going on a mad dogs chase cos my Peanuts and JJ were taking turns to bark and getting accquainted with each other by chasing each other around. It was quite chaotic especially when it was my stupid dog who did most of the barking!!Hmm maybe shan't let JJ come anymore cos his too much of a goody two shoes and makes Peanuts look bad haha right anot Fang? *grinz*

Dinner with Xiao P was nice as I hadn't seen her for quite a longggggggg while. hard to imagine my longtime childhood friend being married and is a mother-to be!! She looks hmm somewhat different now that she's expecting....can sense her sweet aura of "motherliness" and "xin funess"
Time really flies.....it seems just yesterday that she held my hand and brought me across the road when we were little kids. Well I can't expected to be called a jie jie by kids anymore....better get used to being called an auntie.

Went Lao Pa Sat for dinnerwith Ed and his colleagues. had a great time listening to all the juicy news and sharing and of cos! Gobbling as much food as I can!! Nah not that greedy yet to be gobbling food. They are a really nice bunch of people who takes joy in teasing each other and having harmless fun. We had coffee at the Clarke Quay TCC and another round of yakking before heading home.

This year's Mid-Autumn festival was a real memorable one. Simply because it was one of the few times whereby my whole family including Ed, went out for a meal together and what makes it real special was that daddy actually brought us to Marina South and we had the first outdoor BBQ steamboat for the very first time as a family and even took a family picture! Now that's real memorable!

K before I bore anyone to tears...I better not....haha have a bad habit of being super long-winded.....but heck! Who even reads my blog anyway!?! Till next time!!!

2005-09-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

LOVE

Love, though magnificent,
is a little word of great value.
It’s depth too profound,
to be described by words alone.
Yet it’s a simple gesture,
of care and concern.
With its radiance like a dainty flower,
it reaches and touches the desolate,
it eases their pain and comforts them.
it offers warmth and security to the weary.
it brings joy and laughter to the sorrowful.
Love never fails.
For one to receive and conrade love is easy,
but for one to give unreserved love,
takes real effort and is worthy of praise.
Time is brief,
yet when it’s gone ,
LOVE goes on and on……

And yes...this is written by me...so it's my copyright...=P

A Full Full day

2005-09-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

A Full Full day

Am super bloated!! Kept eating the whole day! Ate Seoul garden with two of my gals todae.....boy they sure can eat alot! Vanessa especially. We kept piling our plates with food...then went on to eat Ice-Kachang before trying out all 7 flavours of ice-cream!! =X It was Vanessa's well-deserved reward for having improved her grades for CA2...and Colleen came along to join the fun hee. After which we went to the Central library to browse through magazines and books. They juz can't stop yakking the whole afternoon though!! Haha a few times, people around us kept giving us the "stare" but guess they were having too much fun. I had a hard time getting the gals to go hm cos they wanted to hang out somemore even though it was time for them to head hm. It makes it easier that Ed showed up..got excuse to make the gals go hm else...they will most probably wanna shop around somemore =P

Hee went for dinner with Ed...ya so I'm greedy....haha. Ate wanton mee and curry rice...but the food wasn't really yummy....so won't go there again nxt time. Oh I got this very nice nail polish at the Faceshop for juz $2.50!!*Wide Grinz*

In short...had fun today and really enjoyed my time with the gals......Frankly speaking, the kids in school are very endearing. Though different in a way, they are juz like any other kids. They are juz as talkative...juz as mischevious and lazy and at the same time...very very loving and innocent in their unique ways.At times, rather than you teaching them stuff...they turn out to be the ones giving ya valuable insights.Those precious moments are worth their weight in gold.

Can't wait for the day I graduate! It is my greatest yearning to be able to get into NIE...to finally be trained and be a full fledged teacher...to gain enough experience and ultimately...if i can ...to be given a chance to work in a special school. =)

NEW UPDATES!!

2005-09-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

NEW UPDATES!!

Haha Liyan just added in a tagboard for me *Happy* ....so that ppl can add their comments on it and she helped me adjust my entry box.....hee so James dun complain that the box too small liao k! *thinks James is getting old that's why has difficulty reading my blog* LOL.

Had fun yesterdae....went studying with Ed at CDAC....but it was super noisy and we didn't last long.....haha we ended up going out with the guys. Went to Comos...the IT fair. It was very crowded and I was so afraid that someone would just step on my toes anytime....after which Han...Ed and I went to the food fair and stuff ourselves with sausages and "Xue Hua Bin" before meeting up with the rest. It was really quite tiring cos we covered a long distance....from walking a large part of Suntec...to Marina Square..to the hawker place next to Esplanade (luckily Feelin and han took Ah Hao's car there when he came to fetch Ivy).....ate a super full dinner...then to Esplanade......before going back to Marina Square. Wanted to go Coffee Club Express...but ended up in Changing Appetites....haha...Poor Joyce..(James' galfren)....first time hanging out with us and she gotta walk so much..... hee but all in all....guess we had fun.

Nothing much to write about today...spent the dae at home cos Ed and I overslept and didn't go church *oops*....Ed's having exams on Tues though and needs time to study.....same here....haiz wish I can finish my assignments and project fast...so that I can have more time to revise for my exams........k enough of blogging ...time to hit my books again.

I spent Teachers' Day studying!!!! Arghh!!

2005-09-03T02:26:00.000+08:00

I spent Teachers' Day studying!!!! Arghh!!

Spent my first Teachers' Day in 5 yrs purely studying instead of actually celebrating! Well that's what happens when I decided to stop teaching and study instead. =) Was very touched though...a few of my kids actually smsed me to wish me a Happy Teachers' Day. They remembered me!!! *happy* Sort of in a lazy mood these few days..apart from rotting at hm and hitting my bks, life's pretty mundane.....stay at hm study....meet Ed for dinner...study....play neopets.....sounds boring eh? Haha I'm quite boring for the time being. Sighz gotta buck up...assignments and project due two weeks from now....can't wait for exams to be over...can't wait for the 11th Oct..... till then...it's mugging mugging.....mugging......

Trip to Science Centre

2005-08-30T21:07:00.000+08:00

Went Science Centre with my kids todae. The lower pris were adorable! They were fascinated with most of the exhibits and enjoyed themselves immensely as they fiddled with the displays. It was their first time up a tree house and looking at their innocent faces lit up in pure joy, warms my heart greatly! Gee...really missed them lots....haha so much so that I'm looking forward to going back to visit them soon.....maybe on Children's day... haha....else my kids in the upper primary would keep haunting me to ask when i'm going back to visit them again..... =P
and I'm keeping my fingers crossed....hope that the artworks that some of them are submitting for an art competition would be awarded prizes......real pretty pieces haha once Ed figures out how to post pics...I'm gonna post those artworks on my blog *grinz*

My first attemp

2005-08-29T01:26:00.000+08:00

Whee!!! My very first blog!!! Love my blog lots and love my dear lots! Hee can't help but feel super duper xin fu. Cos Ed spent the whole day working on making me the cutest blog i could ever own. *happy happy happy*